NF - The Search #1

("Hey, Nate, how's life?")

"Hey, Nate, how's life?"

(I don't know, it's alright)

I don't know, it's alright

(I've been dealin')

I've been dealin'

(with some things like)

with some things like

(every human being)

every human being

(And really didn't sleep much)

And really didn't sleep much

(last night)

last night

("I'm sorry," that's fine)

"I'm sorry," that's fine

(I just think)

I just think

(I need a little me time)

I need a little me time

(I just think)

I just think

(I need a little free time)

I need a little free time

(Little break from the shows)

Little break from the shows

(and the bus rides, yeah)

and the bus rides, yeah

(Last year I had a breakdown)

Last year I had a breakdown

(Thoughts tellin' me)

Thoughts tellin' me

(I'm lost gettin too loud)

I'm lost gettin too loud

(Had to see a therapist,)

Had to see a therapist,

(then I found out)

then I found out

(Somethin' funny's goin' on up)

Somethin' funny's goin' on up

(in my house)

in my house

(Yeah, I started thinkin')

Yeah, I started thinkin'

(maybe I should move out)

maybe I should move out

(You know, pack my cart,)

You know, pack my cart,

(take a new route)

take a new route

(Clean up my yard,)

Clean up my yard,

(get the noose out)

get the noose out

(Hang up my heart, let it air out)

Hang up my heart, let it air out

(I've been searchin')

I've been searchin'

("What does that mean, Nate?")

"What does that mean, Nate?"

(I've been learning)

I've been learning

(Grabbin' my keepsakes,)

Grabbin' my keepsakes,

(leavin' my burdens)

leavin' my burdens

(Well, I brought a few with me,)

Well, I brought a few with me,

(I'm not perfect)

I'm not perfect

(Looking' at the view,)

Looking' at the view,

(like this concerns me)

like this concerns me

(Pickin' up the cues right?)

Pickin' up the cues right?

(I'm quite nervous)

I'm quite nervous

(Hate it when I lose sight,)

Hate it when I lose sight,

(life gets blurry)

life gets blurry

(And things might hurt me)

And things might hurt me

(It's prolly gonna be)

It's prolly gonna be

(a long journey, but hey)

a long journey, but hey

(It's worth it, though)

It's worth it, though

(Cold world out there, kids,)

Cold world out there, kids,

(grab your coat)

grab your coat

(It's been a minute, I know,)

It's been a minute, I know,

(now I'm back to roam)

now I'm back to roam

(lookin' for the antidote)

lookin' for the antidote

(to crack the code)

to crack the code

(Pretty vivid; I admit it,)

Pretty vivid; I admit it,

(I'm in classic mode)

I'm in classic mode

(Don't need pity given to me,)

Don't need pity given to me,

(but I can't condone)

but I can't condone

(Talkin' down to me,)

Talkin' down to me,

(I'ma have to crack your nose)

I'ma have to crack your nose

(for crackin' jokes)

for crackin' jokes

(I'm lookin' for the map to hope,)

I'm lookin' for the map to hope,

(you seen it?)

you seen it?

(Been makin')

Been makin'

(a whole lot of changes)

a whole lot of changes

(Wrote a song about that,)

Wrote a song about that,

(you should play it)

you should play it

(I get scared)

I get scared

(when I walk on these stages)

when I walk on these stages

(I look at the crowd)

I look at the crowd

(and see so many faces, yeah)

and see so many faces, yeah

(That's when I start)

That's when I start

(to get anxious)

to get anxious

(That's when my thoughts)

That's when my thoughts

(can be dangerous)

can be dangerous

(That's when I put on my makeup)

That's when I put on my makeup

(and drown in self-hatred)

and drown in self-hatred

(Forget I'm saying, and-)

Forget I'm saying, and-

(Where'd the beat go?)

Where'd the beat go?